Healing Worship.

Just last Sunday, i went for 1st service.
Pastor yang played this video. "A Call To Anguish" From David Wilkerson.
It was so good.
i was literally crying throughout the video, as i listened to him preach.
I felt that God is calling me back into who i am, who i really am.

During sermon, pastor yang said something like.
Whats the 1 thing that we are always tested in? in our lives?
God will always test us, the call/anointing he placed in our lives.
Example for Pastor Yang, he is called to be a spiritual father to this nation, to His people.
So everytime since last time, he is always challenged to be a father, and always being criticised,
always go through trails and trails of becoming a spiritual father.
And i began to think about my life. 
The very 1 thing that i have always thought about, always desired, always wanted nothing more than it,
is to heal the sick, be so close to God, sit at His feet, be so filled with Him, so that i can bring hope and healing to the people.
i want nothing more than that.
Since i was a believer, i have always been mourning, and so deeply desired for the sick to be healed, and to be married to Jesus.
I just want to be so close to Him and be so filled with Him more than anything else.
I want that me back, who i really was, just craving for Him and His presence.
Caring about absolutely nothing but His kingdom.
I know i've been tested many times, and sometimes may fail,
but i will always stand up and i believe i will, because i know He will pick me up.

After seeing the video, it really recalls me, and brings me to that place where i want to know His heart so much,
so much, i want to fight for Him so much, want to know His every burdens and thoughts so much,
that i just want to sit at His feet more than anything else.

Recently, many encounters happened.
Just a few days back, was spending some time in worship, and i suddenly thought about Amelia's song, Fly.
As i was just singing the bridge, i teared and just singing it over and over again.
I never had such a revelation of that song, i realize Amelia was really very prophetic and had such a heart for God.
Recently i downloaded GarageBand on my iphone, and i composed a song! haha =)

Yesterday Nicki Raibodi came to speak at 3rd service.
Had a great time laughing as usual,
but i thought it was a great sermon.

God has been really letting me know that there's no one for me but Him.
have been really learning to rely on God, no one but Him.
Everyday i struggle to rely on Him, i'm getting more used to Him and relying on Him.

He's always at the door, when i knock.
When i open the window, He alone stands there waiting

Today was zone meeting~
It wasn't the usual zone meeting where the preacher comes out after pnw and then altar call and so.
But it was just praise & worship, soaking, encountering God & etc.
we were just laughing, crying, seeking God and some even get healed!

Felt so awesome, and felt that our zone has actually come to a new level,
such a different atmosphere, such a different culture now.
Just hope that those who have left will come back again and know that it has all change.

May it be more and never ending Amen.

Shall post the zone meeting pics soon!

This week was really a awesome week for me.

During kingdom invasion, it was really my breakthrough.
I've never felt this way , and never encounter God this way before.
When i saw that zoie and the rest were holy laughter-ing,
if it was the me last time, i would have strive, and keep asking God like crazy.
but during that time, i was just trusting God, letting Him do the job and decisions.
I just trust God, trust that He will touch me, trust that He will give me the same thing He gives them.
Last time, i will strive even in asking God, because i'm afraid that if i don't strive to ask Him, He will never give it to me. But now, He really thought me alot about being childlike.
Just trusting the goodness of the Father that He will not leave me out.
So i just sit still, and wait for it to happen. and TADA!
When i was sitting down with the rest, Christine tripped over me and BAM!
it just hit me and i was just lying on the floor laughing and crying at the same time.
After a while, pastor daniel came and prayed for me. It was uncontrollable.

Pastor Daniel prayed for me that i will be set free of man's opinions, and that i will have the freedom
to praise, to worship, to laugh, to cry, to be myself.
I want that man! I'm really contending for that!
And i've really seen myself being so free these days compared to last time.

On Sunday, service was crazy! God just wrecked us man!
Geners were rolling on the floor, laughing, crying, shouting, jerking... wad else.
God just moved and touched us. Randy Clarke really brought the atmosphere here to generation,
and kingdom invasion really opened many hearts and minds.
During the altarcall on sunday, when i went down to the altar, i was just doing the same, trusting God that
He will hit me, and indeed! When andrew prayed for me, i felt sucha joy and just laughing out loud and not
caring about whose beside me and so.

"ve been so long since i felt this child-likeness in me.
Many people probably don't wanna be childlike because they think that being childlike is being weak.
But now, i just feel that. u noe wad?! heck it! i just wanna be a kid before God.
Being a child, just looking at God, trusting Him in His goodness, believing everything He gives me..
Its just so wonderful.

Today lunch time, me and layyi were just talking about God and what He is doing in our lives ..
God is just so awesome, there's so much more about Him that i've yet to know, and i want to know
I still have a long way to getting to know Him, everyday i just want to know Him more

Monday morning, i woke up early because i couldnt sleep, was just thinking about God
and suddenly i saw a text from elliot! haha, he told me about his encounter with God and how he wants to share it with me, so i prophesied over him and told him that i saw him as a bell, and God ringing him.

God is just awesome, doing so much in generations.
He is just so faithful, didnt forget about us, gave us the same goodness as the rest.
What He is doing at bethel, He will be doing the same here in cornerstone, here in Singapore.
We wont be left out, we are a part of it and God wants to use every single one!

How awesome, i just hope that those who have left Him will come back and be a part of this awesome move!

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TOP 5 wishlist / To-do list

1) Watch the awesome movies in 2012
2) Buy my Gmarket cart
3) Get vodaphone
4) Trim hair 
5) Go on a trip to Taiwan!!!!! (feb-march)

Woohoo! There are so many awesome movies i wanna watch in 2012!

Beauty&tBeast3D
TheGrey
Journey2 : Mysterious Island 
Mirror Mirror (A snnow white film)
HungerGames
Safe
The Avengers (All Marvels)
Men in Black 3
SnowWhite&Huntsmen
Jack the Giant Killer  (real life of the story jack & the beanstalk !!)
Brave  ( a disney animated film)
Tinkerbell and the Mysterious Winter Woods 
G.I Joe : Retaliation
The Amazing Spider-Man
Step-Up 4
Looper
Taken 2
BreakingDawn 2

i lost my phone !
thought i would be contact-less this week,  and that no one would ask me out,
suddenly this morning, some noise outside my house woke me up.
and i saw nicholas muhui vincent and the rest outside my house!
haha.. they actually came my house to wake me up and ask me join them go jamming.
so we went to jam @ simei warehouse

taught muhui a few drum beats and we tried jamming vincent's new song. haha~
so after that we went 18 chefs eat and here i am! =)